I started a new diet about five days ago. Story of my life, I know. I've lost and re-gained the same 35 pounds at least half a dozen times in the past few years, which is super depressing and probably really, really bad for me. AND every single time I start a new diet or fitness routine, I say "THIS IS GOING TO STICK" and it never does and I keep going down and up and up and down and getting completely frustrated and fed up with myself.
See, I KNOW how to be a healthy person. I've seen dietitians and trainers and read tons of nutrition and fitness books. I know that the way I have been eating the past few days is how I should eat majority of the time. Does that mean I have to prepare all my meals at home and panic over adding an extra teaspoon of olive oil or hate myself for grabbing an extra cookie? Probably not. Does that mean I can't find room for a huge mug of my favorite 250-calorie pumpkin hot cocoa on occasion? Again, probably not.
I know it’s about finding balance, and that’s something I seem to struggle with in every single facet of my life.
Anyway, every time I begin a new program or routine program, I just feel so uncomfortable. I start feeling sad and sorry for myself because I'm not eating my comfort foods in excess. You know, foods that ultimately make me sick and fat. Foods that make me feel sluggish. Foods I beat myself up for eating! Yet, turning to food for comfort probably my biggest vice (maybe after Diet Coke, but that’s another day). I know it will always be there, even if I won’t let sweet, carb-and-fat loaded goodness into my house. But what happens when I take it away and cut off access to it? I get cranky and depressed and I want to eat more.
However, since Sunday, I’ve felt happier. I’ve been more upbeat, I think. One of my coworkers even asked if I’d lost weight already – I haven’t yet, but maybe my better choices are making me seem lighter. That’s encouraging.
So maybe it will stick this time? I sure hope so. How do you find balance?
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